Oh boy, that word scares me now.
I was in 9th grade, there was this girl, Though she was studying in the school since 5th grade, it was the first time our sections were the same. I saw her and felt my hormones go crazy. Like I literally had to go out of the class with some lame excuse to calm myself down. When I told my best friend about her, he disapproved “Shakal dekhi hai apni? aaja bhai waapas zameen par” (Have you seen your damn face? It would be better if you came back to the ground now).
I didn’t care, she was beautiful. Her hair was too damn perfect and the way she laughed, oh boy, can’t even explain.AND, Of course, I was in love.
So The stalking began, I ordered my best friends to find her on Facebook and send me the link of her profile ASAP. They Did. Conversations between us began. We became good friends. We talked daily on Facebook and in school. I thought she liked me. But I was too scared to confess my feelings because I found her way too perfect and out of my league.
One day my best friend told me “Bhai bol de, friend zone ho jayega fir puri umar k liye” (Confess your feelings bro otherwise you are going to get friend zoned for sure) and one day when I was going to I saw her walking with a senior in recess, I was shattered.Completely.Following 9–10 months she had 3 relationships and she vented in front of me after every break-up.
I actually wanted something people talk about in movies, that everlasting kind of relationships etc etc… or…or…call it “Daydreaming”
For 8 months we were pretty good friends, very close friends you can say but then I made myself distant from her as I knew never in heaven there was a chance for anything to happen between us.
As it happens after 2 months of that distant phase, She asked me “Kya hua Akshat,aajkal baat nahi karta jyada, Everything alright?” (What happened Akshat, you don’t talk to me like you used to, is everything alright?)
And Yes People, I confessed. And the worst timing award goes to “Akshat Mahajan”
BAM! Got friend zoned. This went on until the beginning of 10th grade and then I said to her that I am not comfortable being friends with her, It feels very awkward and embarrassing, also I am not able to concentrate on anything due to this. I actually scored way less in that grade. We stopped talking. Been 2 years like that now.
Stopped talking to girls, Don’t judge me, I just don’t know why! Became very introvert. Became carrier oriented. Changed and improved my lifestyle drastically.
And Asked My Best friend to spray this daily on me!
Though I Still find myself thinking about her daily, but I have accepted the truth as she said herself that “Nothing was ever possible between us as she only saw a friend in me”
We can say what happened was for the best. A relationship at such a young age could have destroyed my future or at least distracted me in important years of my growth.
It was the First and last time the cupid hit me.
Fuck Feelings.
The weird insomniac.
Great broo
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